Something must be in the air...
My head is pounding. I have been in a foul mood since I woke up Tuesday morning. I slept for 12 hours last night and could have probably slept longer if I didnt have work. I didnt care about the traffic this morning or the rain. In fact I wish the weather was worse to match my mood. I just dont know. Well, that aint true, I know from where some of my bad mood is coming from but the rest of it, eh, I really dont care. It has been a while since I have been angry or upset. I have been happy for the last couple of weeks. I actually think I missed being pissed off. What does that say about me? Oh well, I cant really gather the energy to care. It will power my workout tonight though. I always work harder when I want the world to just go away or whatever.
Blah,
Juls
Nice and quiet on the homefront...
I love coming home and having a nice and relaxeful time. We had a small party last night and it was nice. Nothing too taxing or wild or crazy. I didnt have to police people like I have in the past. It was at my parents house and I always get so protective of their stuff, because it isn't mine and I would feel like crap if anything ever happened to it. But, no it was very nice and easy to clean up. I got to chat with some friends I havent been able to see much of recently because of living in Cinci. I miss my friends. We use to hang out every weekend and have parties but now not so much. I think that life just keeps on changing despite ourselves and people change with it. I am ok with that and not. I love the fact that new people come into my life and they bring new and exciting experiences. But I also mourn the fact that others leave my life or at least are not as big in my life as they once were. I can be very rational about the whole thing and know that it is just the constant flow of life that constantly surrounds and buffers us. Other times I want to battle and rage with the unfairity (new word??) of it all. How dare life not do exactly as I want it? But then something happens and I realize that life is not doing anything to me or for me, it just is. And sometimes things happen that make me so completely happy, at least for a little while that I wouldnt give up the randomness of life.
Ok, now I have to eat so bye bye,
Crunch,
Juls
